Doing it!
Hungry

I need to up my “at-work-snack” game…

If only I could make snack portions of…ribs or…something rib-like…or maybe pulled pork…

I smell a weekend mission coming…

Apparently, I’m lacking in the selfie department so here I am, mean-mugging at work.

Apparently, I’m lacking in the selfie department so here I am, mean-mugging at work.

Lazy Monday #dinner - farmer’s market bruschetta #food #meatlessmonday

Lazy Monday #dinner - farmer’s market bruschetta #food #meatlessmonday

Shiva

I did the last yoga class. It wrecked me emotionally but in the best possible way. I’m not very good at doing “feelings” but let me tell you, I FELT things at the end of that 3h. It was to the point that I went to say thanks to the teacher and I broke into tears. Me. I don’t do tears. I later sat in my car for 30 mins, bawling. After a good nap, everything felt better and I was ready to take on the world.

Remarks: I’m going to be sore for a few days, I got closer to a headstand than ever. Also, I went to all 3 workshops. I showed up and I tried my hardest and you know what, that’s fucking awesome.

sore glutes…

I haz them. 

Send help…or massage therapist…please!!

Also, thanks for all the love you’ve been sending my way recently, Internet. I’m sending you all hugs and butt grabs. Seriously though, you’re the best. Thank you. 

Dinner and acquainting myself with the newest members of my collection! #fuel #yoga #food #cookbooks

Dinner and acquainting myself with the newest members of my collection! #fuel #yoga #food #cookbooks

Humbled

2/3 yoga classes done. Yesterday night was 3h of hip openers. It was one of the hardest classes I’ve ever done and It was…magnificent. I can’t really describe how good it felt!

This morning was back bends. This was a bit trickier for me because not having a “proper” yoga body, I spent 3h feeling not good enough. There was partner work and I sat it out and tried not to cry because it just felt incredibly humiliating to have to ask someone for help with this terrible lump of a body that I have. I’m the only person who sat out and I felt so…inadequate. To be honest, I spent most of the class today fighting some pretty crappy body shaming talk inside myself so now, I’m going to spend the rest of my day just nurturing myself back to a place where I won’t be scared to go to the final class tomorrow morning.

Helping me help myself

I got myself a little labour day gift this morning: a 3 day yoga workshop on the power of choice. 

First class: “Accept”:  Meet Brahma, the Inspiration to Create. Deepen into hip-openers and spinal twists.

Second class:“Change”:  Meet Vishnu, the Courage to Sustain. Expand your back-bends.

Third class:“Walk Away”:  Meet Shiva, the Wisdom to Let Go. Rediscover the benefits of forward bends and rock arm-balancing poses.

I’m super nervous and excited. I’m a little scared that I won’t be able to keep up BUT I also think that this will be a nice way to get back into my body after a “meh” transition back to work. 

Woo!

better :)

So I put on my big girl pants and went to work. I got a bunch of stuff done and since I’m the only person here, I blasted some Elton John and danced around the community centre singing “The bitch is back” at the top of my lungs. 

It’s the little things I tell ya!

Sitting in front of my workplace

I absolutely don’t want to go in. I’m so exhausted at the sheer idea of going into the building. I’m doing my best not to break down and I’m certain that everything will be fine.

3 days of work and then 3 day weekend. That’s what I need to remember.